I began this page when I was very young and first began facing the truth of our mortality. I created dedications,
which I will not delete, but the truth is that the list of those who have passed keeps getting greater and greater. Therefore,
I dedicate this page to all of us who have been, who are, and who will ever be with a new poem...
Step to the beat of a different drum Make choices, Make mistakes, Fall
in love Don't let your heart go to waste Because the last thing you want is to feel empty in the end And what if
the end is today?
Leaving 3-6-12
Close my eyes, feel your touch Don't leave me now The pain will be too great For
me to bear Love is stronger than death or any pain we could be given But something about you being gone from this
world... Well, it just feels so unnaural And how could a natural thing feel so unnatural?
Don't leave me now I don't want to be alone Don't leave this world It won't be the
same My body won't feel right Nothing will seem right
I asked for more time So far I've had it But how
long will it last? God knows right now is the only promise he's made I only know this moment is the only one guaranteed Don't
leave me now, it may be the last time you ever see me
You went away I miss you, our time is up already I wish you wouldn't
have left, not yet But He needs you more than I do, now God knows He made you special
Roses and candles and memories are all I have now Memories are shadows of what once
was Almost like you were just a dream But you were real, as real as real could ever be
Life goes on, Nothing is guaranteed Never leave without a proper goodbye
Copyright 2012
If Tomorrow Starts Without Me
If tomorrow starts
without me, And I'm not there to see, If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me;
I
wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say.
I
know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;
But
when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by
the hand,
And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I
dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye For all my life, I'd always thought, I
didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for, So much left to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was
leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, The thought of all the love we shared, And
all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, I'd say good-bye and kiss you And
maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, Would
take the place of me.
And when I thought of wordly things, I might miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and
when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When
God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne,
He said, "This is eternity, And all I've promised
you." Today your life on earth is past But here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, But today will always
last, And since each day's the same way There's no longing for the past.
You have been so faithful, So trusting
and so true. Though there were times You did some things You knew you shouldn't do.
But you have been forgiven And
now at last you're free. So won't you come and take my hand And share my life with me?
So when tomorrow starts
without me, Don't think we're far apart, For every time you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart.
-Author Unknown
How does life get so bad that a person doesn't want to live?
How does someone make that choice? I wish I knew, because most people don't live to tell why...and even when they do...it's
nearly impossible to understand.
Maybe he wouldn't have done it if the police let his parents
stay near him and be involved. He called 911 to cry out for help. It's hard to say if that's really what he got. The
entire mess if confusing, but God has his reasons...and his mercy, grace and love.
Mel was 23, and a member of the U.S. National Guard, and previously
the navy.
In Memory of Melvin Dwight Jones
May 4, 1983-October 20, 2006
Rest in Peace
Spend all your time waiting for that second
chance For a break that would make it okay There's always some reason to feel not good enough And it's hard at
the end of the day I need some distraction, oh, a beautiful release Memories seep from my veins Let me be empty,
oh, and weightless, and maybe I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of the angel, fly away from here From this dark, cold hotel room And the endlessness
that you fear You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie You're in the arms of the angel May you find...some
comfort here
So tired of the straight line,
that everywhere you turn There's vultures and thieves at your back Storm keeps on twisting, keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack It don't make no difference, escaping one last time It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh, this glorious sadness That brings me to my kness
You're in the arms of the angel May you find....some comfort here
-"Angel" by Sarah McClaughlan
Over In Memory of
Melvin Dwight Jones 10-24-06
I didn't get to tell you that I know who
you are I didn't get to let you know how much we are alike Back in the years I never felt close to you at all But
I always saw something in you I always cared about you
But now my chance is over 'cause I'm behind the line that
knew you the best But I'm right here with them, wishing I had just one more chance to know just one more chance to
show you that this world wants you in it
I guess I've not much place to say 'cause I thought about escaping too And
lately I've been lost in my own feelings and loneliness trying to use love as my strength and will But sometimes
it's not enough 'cause your love's right in front of me And I wish there was something I could say to her But
there's nothing I can do
Why's there so much distance? And why are we all looking for that security? Now I know
this life is painful And I've more sympathy for you than you know It's just so hard to remember wishing time was
still on my side It's just just so hard to reach out when you're so lost inside
I just wish I'd got to tell you wish
I'd gotten to know 'cause we both don't deal with things so easily No, we both are fragile human beings But life,
it's hard too precious you gotta love yourself sometimes I just wish we'd reached and pulled a little harder I
wish I could have reached and pulled a little harder just to keep you here, just one more chance 'cause now our chance
is over And it's amazing how distant and close people can be at once
Why are we trying to make impressions? Why
can't we just be ourselves? 'cause every person is a unique moment in time put in this life once and when one has
ended we gotta realize who's still here everything can be gone in a moment and moments just keep going by What
are we trying to prove here? There's so much we have to lose
America is at war. You've heard it everywhere. We probably
don't think much of the war until we hear something like this: 20-year-old Brian Romines joined the National Guard to serve
his country, as well as for the benefits that were beyond worth it. Plans changed when 9-11 and the war in Iraq happened.
Soon enough, Brian was overseas leaving his family and friends behind. He sent letters back, including to his church family.
Stories of how God was obviously watching over him kept coming to the family who was worried. I honestly thought he was going
to come back.
June 6, 2005: Brian Romines killed in an explosion in Baghdad.
Believe me when I tell you this is serious.
It doesn't reach you so much until one person dies whom you
knew. Then you think of all the millions of soliders who are dying, have died, are going to die, and who have even died in
past wars.
Thank them even though they can't hear you.
This is my small thanks to Brian, and all the soldiers over there.
Brian's funeral of totally under God's grace and amazing, unlike anything you ever
see in a small town. There were so many organizations and people there to help secure it and keep it peaceful. This website
contains pictures of the funeral of the people who were there, to give you an idea of the good people we have even in a small
area.
I knew Brian, even though not extremely close. He was a cheerful and happy guy
and I know he would've loved the funeral more than anything else. The only thing he would've changed was all the tears and
pain that so many people shed and felt, even those who barely knew him but that he touched and never knew it. He knows it
now. God's given him all the unwritten letters.
You had the strength that so many could never have
Heroes become angels
When heroes make the ultimate sacrifice
Without any payment, no reward
Risking the loss of everything
For a cause unanalyzed of its worth
Just life, life for life
Like an angel
My hero is my angel
My hero is alive
These lyrics were originally posted in memory of Zack Vanausdoll and Aaron Pearson, who
passed away in August 2003.
My Immortal
Evanescence
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if
you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me
alone
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase
When
you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through
all of these years But you still have All of me
You used to captivate me By your resonating mind Now I'm
bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the
sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot
erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight
away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me
I've tried
so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along
When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all
of these years But you still have All of me
